Sunday, September 5, 2010

hardness of life..

At my early stage of life, I am just a little girl who have no idea of how to live and survive. When I enter schooling, I always depend on my parents, I usually asked them what to do. I thought I cant live without them. I never join into a co-curricular activities for I feel so shy that I dont want people to see me. Though how I being dependent on my mother, I try to pursui with my own and I do it as I graduated to my elementary schooling. In my secondary life, I thought this was the harde4st part of my life. This time, I learn not to depend on my mother, here I learn to do things within my own, I learn to make an own decision. Maybe because of so many bad happened. And not like in my early age, this time, I am no longer cry on my mother for I dont want them to be weak about what I feel. I thought I am the voice of the family, I should be strong enough for my family gets weaker. My tragic high school life has ended and now I am on the last stage of schooling. I never thougth I could step up college for many reasons(financially), yet God allows me to experience being a college student on my dream school. Here, I told myself to pursui my goals, I make changes yet I dont know if I can make it. If I thougth high school life is so disguising, this time I dont know what to call for it. There a lot of things that made me stronger. And this time I learn to know myself and to be dependent.